Took a sharp knife, more than once or twice
To the heart of this, and you threatened it
Metaphorically, accidentally
You called me your everything
And the pressure, I have to emphasize
Made our roof cave in, built by idiots
Still so earnestly over carefully
Questions crept back into my head again

That's when I knew, suddenly, I would be leaving
And neither of us saw it coming
If only I had a good reason
That's when I knew, honestly, you would start bleeding
Just to cover it up for my feelings
If only I had a good reason

Am I thinking straight? Was I meant to stay?
You're too nice to me when I tell you things you don't wanna hear
Like I spent the year over-promising, over everything

That's when I knew, suddenly, you would be grieving
I'm only half sure that I mean it
If only I had a good reason
Oh, but I bet
You'd probably sit there and take it
Well, that only makes me regret it
If only I had a good reason

If only I had a good reason
If only it wasn't bad timing
If only I chose you and not me
If only we leaned into fighting
If only you got disappointed
If only I kept every promise
If only you treated me poorly
If only you didn't adore me
If only you didn't adore me

I knew, suddenly, I would be leaving
And neither of us saw it coming (coming)
If only I had a good reason ([?])
That's when I knew you'd probably sit there and take it
Well, that only makes me regret it
If only I had a good reason (if only I had a good reason)

(Ah, I don't [?]) if only I had a good reason
If only I chose you and not me (baby)
If only I had a good reason
If only I chose you and not me
If only I had a good reason
If only I had a good reason
If only, if only