hedonic treadmill

You just hit refresh again
Like: Maybe this time it's gonna change
Sittin' here and clickin' buttons
Like this life is all a game

You only got here cause you're lucky
You barely have a single skill
I saw you try to change your dreams
Then fall apart to pay the bills

Are you ever satisfied?
When will anything suffice?
Your hedonic treadmill's running, so
I suggest you take advice

I had a dream the other night
That you never saw the screen
Maybe, then, you'd be forgiving
And stop making up new dreams

If I cannot climb the ladder, then I know I can't be happy
And if I cannot be happy, then my mama isn't happy
If my mama isn't happy, that hurts my entire family
If I'm harming my own family, then my partner can't be happy

If my partner isn't happy, then that's really sayin' something
I wanna do my best or else this all will be for nothing
Fixin' what is left, the weight of everything is crumbling
If my father cannot rest, I know that this was all for nothing

Nothing