Why I Have My Grandma's Sad Eyes

It started like this
I was here right
Standing leaning back
My deer in the headlights look never fails
But hearing all the things that you said
Cut me to the core,
Blew me away,
Like I got hit with a gunshot,
Like a bomb dropped
Stabbed with a white hot knife in the heart
While all these people still ask me why I have my grandma's sad eyes
Now you know why
Cos this time I didn't see it coming
Couldn't stop the running
Words out your mouth
They're leaving me crushed
Sound louder than bombs
Hit harder than mack trucks on highways
Knock me down like
The chump with the black eye
Hit with the uppercut
It tastes like blood
And a case of
Ice cold pure devastation
I may never stand up again
I will never go out again, again
Oh fuck if this is the end,
Then I just want revenge
I just want to take you down with me
I've been so mad and furious
Love must be just for idiots
I'm shutting down,
Breaking down
Getting out of this shit hole ghost town
Cos all these people still ask me why
I have my grandma's sad eyes
I must have my grandma's sad eyes
Time's past,
Just like a gasp from some tiny cell inside that
Won't die
Sendind out a quiet ping
Like a submarine
A lost transmission from a distant galaxy
So reach way down in the dark
To the bottom of my rotten heart
To a place deep in my black lung
For the song I haven't sung since I was a little brat from Connecticut
When I felt so alone against the world
Picked always last
It saved me then it will save me now
It goes,
"Universe, wrap your arms around me.
Make me strong
So I can take on anyone"
I must have my grandma's sad eyes
Now you know why
Now you know