16 Years Old

I come from a family that doesn't accept mistakes
That November I made a mistake like never before
I said I would stay forever
But I lied and I made a mistake with you

I won't apologize
Because they would be fake
I won't give you a smile
Because it would be fake
I won't give you a gift
Because it would be a bribe

I know I made a mistake, I know I lied
But I have the right to make mistakes
I know what I did wrong, I know what I did
But this is my life
I can make mistakes, I can feel
I can be the worst, I can become the best
I'm 16 years old
And I am what I should be

I come from a torturous place
I broke things, I broke alliances and friendships
Pretending to be okay, pretending not to be destroyed
But children of controlling parents are liars

I won't pretend I'm okay
Because you always know
I won't feel like dying
Because you would save me
I won't ask for help
Because that drowning is what I want most

I know I made a mistake, I know I lied
But I have the right to make mistakes
I know what I did wrong, I know what I did
But this is my life
I can make mistakes, I can feel
I can be the worst, I can become the best
I'm 16 years old
And I am what I should be

Being a teenager is part of the journey
Don't demand what's right from me
I have to go through the cycle
I'm only 16 years old