To L-Ve

Like chains that control me
Like fog that mists up my sight
Infectants
Like hope sinking in
Like rapid rattle that stuns me slowly
These streams of doubt
They drain out love out of me
Though it’s so much in you
My world is a tomb
And every funeral inside
I skipped, I left
Like face fading in blue
In a car that used to bring me to
From where I'm far away
From where I found love

Though it’s so much in you
My world is a tomb
This streets wearing black
I wander
Her face bleeding blue
Doubt is what you drew
Am I seeing this again
I'm wondering

Felt helpless
Completely surrendered to time
Let me exit
I could not explain to you why
I'm not the one who deserves your trust
And my feet keep me away
From where I find love

And then I knew
It’s not the moment I can defeat
My demons, my past, my sins
It aches the same
Sinking further
I promised I won’t hurt instead
Though I loved, but you saw
That I'm not ok
I stayed silent, dumb, aching
Waiting for the day when it ends
Though you were my help
I am already dead
And though this is my hell
Inside of me it stays the same, forgive