brutal (Live From Glastonbury) (A BBC Recording)

I'm so insecure, I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause who am I if not exploited?
And I'm so sick of seventeen
Where's my fuckin' teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
Anxious, and nothing can help
I wish I'd done this before
I wish– jump

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah-ah-ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here

I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
Lately, I'm a nervous wreck
'Cause I love people I don't like
I hate every song I write
I'm not cool, I'm not smart
I can't even parallel– come on

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah-ah-ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is– sing it
(God, it's brutal out here)

Got a broken ego, broken heart
God, I don't even know where to start