Infinite Sadism

She cuts the palm of her hand
And draws a line in the sand
To the point red reason
Is resting on her wings
She hold the candle alight
To set sensation to rights
And break my will with the sad songs she sings
Can't fight all the heartache
No penance or pain
Will leave me again
Under torrents of shame
Pull the message apart
Life is pain, Death is art
The illusion of choice
Is my blight, is your blame

Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you still feel the same?
Trust me just for a moment...

Take your tantrum to town
Try to tie Tantalus down
If you think that you've got it
Then just try to take it
You'll swallow my guilt
And lament what I've spilt
I assure actuality
So don't try to fake it
Dark forces about
Out of sight, underground
The hurt that is holy
Humanity whole
Your will is made strong
But your motives are wrong
Still I count on the seconds
Still slipping along

Do you hear my heart beating?
Out of step, sub-sublime
I don't mind the thought fleeting
You do yours and I'll do mine

She draws a line in my hand
And draws on all that she can
To the point now of a clairvoyant clarion call
Hold the candle to light
And all my senses alright
And break your will with the mad songs appalled

"..The seduction is beauty
Justification is honesty
And the aim is ecstasy
And the fantasy is death!"
Susan Sontag, "Under The Sign Of Saturn", 1974

Do you hear my heart beating?
Out of step, out of time
I don't mind the thought fleeting
You'll get yours all in due time

Do you see my eyes bleeding?
Out of sight, out of my mind
I don't mind the life fleeting
You'll get yours and you know I'll get mine