Crystal Eyes

Like the dead leaf
Hanging to a tree
Everyone all wants to speak
Like we are fruit of the same seed

But we are not
And won't ever be

This is the house
That pain has built
These are all the walls
Written with guilt

I know that sometimes it seems
I am repeating my words
It's all these versions of me
Simply taking turns

No matter how many
Memories made
It all begins to descend
Into disarray

Life is full of lessons
But one thing I will never learn
When you play games with fire
You will always get fucking burned

I swear to God
I must love pain
Day after day
I find my way
Straight back
To the suffering

Years
They feel like days
How far gone
Am I mentally
I remember a
Different me
Am I who I am
Supposed to be

Maybe it's not a ghost
Maybe it's just you
One thought
From two perspectives
By my point of view
Black water
Won't you pull me aside
And drown me inside
Of your darkened tides

The difference is
I am different souls
Bound by skin
Blood and bones
Condolences
To those who know
When the life your given
Isn't only your own

Where does life go
I'm falling away
I can't hold on
Feeling so displaced

This is a game of survival

I don't want to see my face
I was blue in a world of gray
Every single day I fall apart
It's all over before it starts

Counting time
I've been living inside of my minds eye
Wasting my life by idolizing lies
Leaving me behind to fit your design
Focusing on things that didn't matter
More concerned about appearance
Instead of my stature
One day I will be gone from this earth
But I will live on
If only through these words

Picture perfect world
It's time to say goodbye
I'm sorry that I let you down
I tried my best to make you proud
But I'm no apple of your eye
Someday you will see
It was always me
I am the dead leaf
Just hanging by a thread
It's hard to sleep when underneath
You feel no heart beat in your chest

This is the house
Built from pain
This is the glass that lies
Shattered from shame
And we will never be
Roots to the same tree