My Darkest Years

I’ve searched through my existence
The pain that I’ve known
Bruises and denials
Carved inside my heart

Grief, famine, doom
Still dwell in my soul
Like memories of war
Eyes failing

Before the morning comes
I will go down
To where all pain is gone
I will go down

I’ll wait for summer rain
To come wash these mortal coils
While honoring these scars I still recall

I’ve searched through my existence
The fears that I’ve known
She gave me hope and therefore
A reason to live

Grief, famine, sorrow
Have never left my soul
Like memories of war
Heart’s failing

Clinging to a higher hope
Deserting war, hiding to survive
No more tears to sow in this lone earth
From this tree I pray the birds to take me home

And by the daylight I’ll reach the sea
Inhaling black clouds, lulled by the breeze
Here’s everything that I have achieved
After the bottom of my darkest years

Under the sunlight I will break free
You’ll be my Charon in this stormless sea
Remembering those eyes that once saved me
Drunk on sorrow, eternally

I’ve searched through my existence
The dreams that I’ve known
Forced to run for my life
I became a ghost

Grief, famine, sorrow
Have never left my soul
Like memories of war
Heart’s failing

Before the morning comes
I will go down
To where all pain is gone
I will go down

I’ll wait for summer rain
To come wash these mortal coils
While honoring these scars I still recall