Everchanging

Standing in an ever-changing landscape I despise
Can’t look back to take it in
Feel it burn beneath my skin
Coursing through my ever-straining veins for all my life
Bring me to insanity
Love has taken over me
Want to taste what I can’t find
Has harsh desire made me blind?

I’ll hold on, ‘til the light breaks through
Just hold on, till I know what to do
The loneliness makes my heart divide
Longing for a place I can reside
To fill the holes inside

Show me just an ever-longing glimpse of paradise
Held down when I need to run
One step from oblivion
Silent when an ever-lasting scream builds up inside
Desperate for the one I love
No help from the stars above
Darkness now my only friend
Take me to that place again

And hold on, ‘til the light breaks through
Just hold on, in the dark I always knew
The loneliness makes my heart divide
Longing for a place I can reside
To fill the holes inside

I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid to let you out
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid, and so I doubt
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid to take it in
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid of what I’ve been
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid to let you out
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid, and so I doubt
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid, so I go on
I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid of what I’ve done!

So is it really worth the torment?
Go!
Can it stop, can you wake me from all I dream
Try to cry, try to feel myself beckoning
Feel the holes buried deep in me, can’t you see
I am so unsure, what I am anymore