Smoke & Felt

I was a sheltered kid
But we hit each other with bats
We kept our heads in helmets
While constantly swatting gnats
Two feelings you can recall
Grip tape against our legs
And tossing orange felt balls cross-legged on carpet
The truth is there was more
Marb lights and Lebanese food
The fuzz of an uncle's arm
Spilling soda in the living room

There weren't promises
It never felt like this
If everyone belonged here, it shouldn't feel like this
There weren't promises
It never felt like this
If everyone belonged here, it shouldn't feel like this

The truth is we dropped it all
Kept our fingers' tendons wrapped too loose above the curb
And everyone saw it snap
Your neighbor said it looked like something from the twilight zone
Now we're driving two hours away
With no tape player and a broken collar bone

These are promises
Now we feel like this
You end up on so many pills
They made promises
Don't second guess that you see lightning
Now we feel like this
You end up on so many pills
We both smelled rain
Is this being held?
These are promises
I kept on watching
We shouldn't feel like this
You end up with nothing
Is this being nothing?

Why do we keep freaking out?
You kept your arms around me
Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me
(I dipped my arm into the lake
We saw your struggle
Just stay calm)
Why do we keep freaking out?
You kept your arms around me
Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me
(I dipped my arm into the lake
We saw your struggle
Just stay calm)
Why do we keep freaking out?
You kept your arms around me
Trying hard not to think about what will they do without me
(I dipped my arm into the lake
We saw your struggle
Just stay calm)