Messy

Had nice things but I broke 'em all
And now I’m screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?
Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out
Yeah, I’m sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?

The Sun is up but I just don’t wanna face it
I found my phone but I lost my motivation
Took all my big dreams and threw 'em in the basement

20-something, yeah, I’m running out of options
Running from these demons in my old Doc Martens
Mixing all my problems up with grenadine
I try, but I just can’t get it right

Had nice things but I broke 'em all
And now I’m screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?
Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out
Yeah, I’m sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?

I keep my medication underneath my pillow
Anxiety hanging over my head just like a halo
I’m too afraid to see the world so I just lay low
I lay awake and try to tell myself a story
But even all my fantasies are pretty fucking boring
That’s why I fill my cup and I feel it in the morning
I try, but I just can’t get it right

Had nice things but I broke 'em all
And now I’m screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?
Tunnel vision, yeah, I shut you out
Yeah, I’m sorry that I let you down
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?

And how the hell did I get so messy?
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?
Had nice things but I broke 'em all
Now I’m screaming at my crystal ball
When did it get so heavy?
And how the hell did I get so messy?