Nihil

Look inside of my mind you won’t find a soul
You won’t find curiosity
No philosophy
Never catching me
Sacred lotus flee
No hostility
No bliss in me
No dissing me
World is empty
Not a pessimist
Just a lyricist
Stuck inside of this
State of loss and bliss
But I’m not happy

I keep running back to my business
Like I got something I can finish
What is this feeling
I grew up with a family with belief in God
So strong, it should've passed on to me
All of me gone in this state of forgetfulness
Tell em this you did your best to pass on all the hope
But it didn't and now nihilism is over me
(Damn)

Nihil it's my motto
I am solo
I am numb

Shattered is my soul
Inside nihil
I'm afloat

You broke my concept of love
I fell from the hill
You used to rock my world
Now I have no feel

Look around
Everything is empty
No matter what
It always get me thinking
There's no point
On living or existing
Should I step off the golden
I'll ask it to billie

I’m only safe when I kneel to him
I only pray when I need something
Is my faith lacklustered
I love you grandmother
But I can’t put my trust in something I’ve never seen
I know you tell me to just believe
But 14 years later, I’m still out looking for inner peace

Love is a lie
Also do I
Nothing has a reason

But that is fine
I'll never die
I never really existed

Nihil, I feel
I can't move on
Nihil, it's real
Everyone's alone
Nihil, my feel
I have no one