A CROWN THAT WASN'T MINE

I gave my blood to a throne in the dark
Carried her name like a flame in my heart
I crossed every war Just to stand at her door
But she never once called me home

I more my kness through the marble and Stone
Begged for a place in the Kingdom unknown
I mistook every silence for something divine
And called it love when left me behind

So I burned and I built
From the dust
From the guilt

Why do I feel like a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine?
Why does heart ask forgiveness
For surviving past goodbye?
I was loyal to an empty throne
Bled for a queen who let me go
Now I'm afraid to look
Toward another light
Why do I feel like a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine?

I raise these walls walls with my trembling hands
Made a kingdom from what I couldn't understand
Every brick was a battle I fought in my head
Every tower was a night I should've been dead

Now the banners are moving the war drums are still
For the First time in years I can breathe if I will
But I see other castles, I see other skies
And I hate that it feels like a crime

Was I bound by a vow that she never spoke out loud
Why do I feel like a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine?
Why does my heart ask forgiveness
For surviving past goodbye?
I was loyal to an empty throne
Begged for a queen who let me go
Now I'm afraid to look
Toward another lie
Why do I feel like a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine?

I was never her king I was never her chosen
Just a ghost at the gates of a kingdom left frozen
And maybe moving on
Doesn't make me cruel
Maybe I was faithful to a beaultful wound

If another hand should find me
If another voice feels kind
Would I still hear her name
Like a setence in my mind?

Why do I feel like a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine?
Why does heart ask forgiveness
For learning to be alive?
I was loyal to an empty throne
Bled for a queen who let me go

But I built a world from
Everything I survived
I am not a traitor
To a crown that wasn't mine

I was not her king
She was not my queen
But I loved her
Like the Kingdom was mine