Numb

I'm so tired of losing those I love
And I can't feel a God damn thing
Tell me, does it ever get better?
'Cause I just need it to go away, go way

I can't remember the last time I had a night of decent sleep
Been kept awake in my mind by all these haunting dreams
That I can't seem to unsee

And yet, why does real life seem darker than my nightmares?
All that's in sight are doubtful thoughts with no repair
Like this hole in my chest
The larger it gets, the more they seem to disappear

So tell me something, anything just to make me feel alive
This vessel's wearing me down, it's no longer mine
It's no longer mine, no longer mine

Oh, rip what's left of my heart out
I can't recognize myself
I'm so numb
I wish I could bleed out just to feel the pain
Breathing doesn't even feel the same
I'm numb

I can't remember the last time I didn't have anxiety
How can you be so overwhelmed yet have no true feelings?
I'm suffocating underneath

Real life seems darker than my nightmares
I can't even cry or find it in me if someone dies
Sympathy is something I must fake

It saddens me to take away this empathy I once had
Maybe someday, I'll get back what I'm missing, but until then
Until then

Oh, rip what's left of my heart out
I can't recognize myself
I'm so numb
I wish I could bleed out just to feel the pain
Breathing doesn't even feel the same

Oh, rip what's left of my heart out
I can't recognize myself
I'm so numb, so numb